Im on a mean streak of bad fuckin luck.

a recent case of insomnia.

leads me to fuckin blurt out this garbage on this garbage website.

Why am I on it? Maybe cuz Im no better.

the only time I feel refuged is at nite in my bedroom with the covers over my head high.and my doggie by my feet. But i'm fucked the rest of the day.

Unless im reading really good book...or watching my dvd's =)

My anxeity has finally reached its peak. I want to be nowhere, seen by no one, heard by no one. and CSI awaits me in a few weeks. Ha.

dangling betweeen a feeling of misery and hope
I want to bash my head agains the setting sun and peace
ofthis potrait
but the urge is not strong enough
So i fight for peace
but give up lamely halfway

I dangle between hope and misery
Hoping to be miserble
and miserably trying to hope

the faint dissapearance
of slightly existing
overshadows the daily grind

The bitter wind greets me at 8
A long stretch of fear, hope,
battling between 1000 emotions
undefined..a quarrel...my beating heart
My drug. My bed.

Lost the current...flow...faintly living

What is going on? I dont get it...I do...but there are some obstacles.

Maybe it's a test of truth.

or some shit like that.

yea. yea.

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I'm in a spin, I'm giving in
I'm living in a daydream
When I saw you, your smile shone through
And touched me like a sunbeam
I'm inside out, I'm crazy about
The way you make my heart feel
I'm head over heels, I'm falling more each day

Been waiting to touch you and tell you how I feel
Walking on clouds
I'm spellbound about you, I can't believe you're real
How did you know?
Been thinking about you and dreaming of your kiss

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Save the drama fo yo momma.

Right Cindy? I love u bitch!